Shopping

Whee! I love shopping so so much! Char, Jarrold, Ben L and i went town today for a lovely therapy for releasing stress: shopping.

I bought a skirt from topshop and a top from forever21. Char got a top from billabong (you look cute in it!), and Ben and Jarrold got their shirts from the Peninsula place thingy (as usual). It only took Ben less than half an hour to spend 60 bucks, he's the super shopper. Char and i are not really contented with what we bought today, haha, suppose that we expected more from our 7 hour shopping trip. Hee. And guess what? Thurs we're going to shop again and again! Woo hoo!! Sarah would be joining us too, muahaha. I'm just so excited, i can just jump into the sky and grab hold of the moon. (Why the moon? hmm..)

Anyways, we discussed about how depression was taking over people in church slowly, and how disturbed we were. And i found it rather strange, on how fast the 'disease' would spread. Eek, it's a pandemic! (Oh shut up you negative thoughts.) Don't worry! We have God on our side, i'm having the faith that ALL these would go away! Shoo you evil depressive things, away from us!! In the name of Jesus!!

I have the power..
(sing this in that special tune from, erm, some movie. Pardon me for forgetting it's title)

Personally, i wouldn't dare to become too depressed or emotional, i don't want to give up on the good plans that God has for me, and i do not want to give up on the levels that i took to be closer to God. And yes, this is a really great catalyst towards my growth in God.

Oh thank you Lord..

Thoughts:

Is it you? Or is it just me?
Monster, you? Or am i the monster?
Fear takes over, and yet it dissipates.
Confidence, and yet there's doubt.
I wonder, i really do.

Oh how i wish that platonic friendships really do exist.
And how i wish that they, or maybe, that person would know

how much i treasure just a normal and yet lasting friendship.
If only they would understand.

Why?
If only..
I wish..

Couldn't you have been a girl instead?


Haha. I hope it's understood, and yet not understood. (don't mind me for my 'indirect'ness) This is not,like what they call it, 'emo'ing, but just a view on what i really feel at this point of time. I'm not feeling depressed, sad, or whatever you may think, but i'm just frustrated, at the things that i would lose.

Hmm, hold on.
I do feel the sense of joy within me though, regardless of whether what took place recently, i still feel normal and bouncy. Oh well, maybe i'm just weird. Hee. So mind you, for there's the psychotic me here. Whaha.

*Wawnie bounces away on her fat butt*