And forever i will sing,

And forever i will sing,

How you gave your life away,

just to save me,

Lord you save me.

Surreality, i must say.

All i can give is a raised eyebrow.

I choose to give it up and hang on to what's most worth.

I think i've been really selfish. I mean, throughout the entire time, i've been asking the few questions in my mind: "Why is he/she doing this to me?" "Why is it so weird?" "Why does everyone misintepret this?".

And yet i've failed to realise that it was never about me. God sent me to be the salt and light of the world. He wants me to rise above all these questions about behaviours and see people as how God sees them. He placed me in wherever i am right now to be that salt and light to them, not to be added trouble! No one is perfect, everyone's still a work in progress.

It was never about me, it has always been about them.

You give and take away,

you give and take away,

my heart will choose to say

Lord blessed be your name.

Today i finally understood what it meant to give God my all. He showed me how he would strip me of my securities and my comforts, so that all i have to offer him is that broken and contrite heart, holding on to my tiny dreams in my hands which are uplifted to Him. And from there, He'll take it and mould it into something great.

It's just so hard to let go of so many things. But these are the things like what Sheila shared with me, that God sieves out via shaking. It's definitely painful. Super painful. But worth it.

God asked me a question just now. He asked me which was more worth it: the stuff that i kept holding on to, or the dreams he gave me. And i honestly took a while to contemplate. Because both were appealing. my eyes were opened. The only thing that was worth and satisfactory was to live a life that glorified God! Not a life of satisfying own needs, because God would do that when you seek Him first. And ya, images flashed across my mind. Images of how life would be if all these things i held on to were gone. It was a painful thing to think about. But when God showed me the things that He would do through me if i had let all these go, i felt that sense of comfort coming back. A sense of overwhelming, what can i say, joy.

When God said seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and that all these things would be added onto you, He didn't exclude emotions and feelings!

O Lord help me to stick by you. That nothing else is as worth it as you! No setback, no heartbreak, no earthly desires, no emotion, can change the fact that you are so worthy.

The week had been 0_0, but God has been faithful.

Wanting to travel the world, to the places with the untouchables. Taking photos, impacting lives.

i praise you Lord, that with every trial that i am in, you provide a way through it.

I give you praise for You deserve it.

It's pointless to think of useless things, but to really fix my eyes on the goal ahead and run without looking back.

Dreams dreams dreams. So many things to do! Why waste time on distractions!

You can do it Dawn! :D

So many things that really distract. And it happens so many times in the same way.

But this time my heart says NO, because all i need is the love of Christ. :D

His love satisfies me, He is all that I'll ever need.