God is truly amazing. The way He answers your prayers. The way He shows you that He had been listening. The way He reveals and illuminates truth to us.

Camp was just amazing. God taught me how selfish i had been, and how it was never about me but about people. It doesn't matter anymore about how i feel, because i am placed here to impact the lives around me. God is capable enough to meet my needs and He knows what to do for me, so on my part, i need to shift my focus from myself to others.

Simple things like treating people rightly, and being sensitive enough to know how they feel.

I know that i have my flaws, but i'll try my best.

It's not about me anymore, but about others.

And the only way that this can happen, is when God's love overflows from my insides. And i thank God that during this camp, He filled with with an overflowing amount of love. A love that far surpasses anything else. I would give nothing in exchange! It is just priceless.

O Lord, i just love you so much! You're so awesome and amazing. And it's crazy when we just think about how much u love us.

I'm sorry, but it isn't right.

My God has something better in store for me.

And i'd want the best rather than just the good.

Thank God for an eye-opener.

O Lord. What do u want to teach me now.

Everything's so muddy.

Everyone else makes it sound so easy.

I need you Jesus.

Honestly, don't know what to do, or how to feel anymore.

I just need Jesus to show me the way. To take me away from this.

Why is it so hard.

Psalm 51: 17 " The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God you will not despise"

It's so hard to stay away. Every minute, every second, every moment.

The more you distant yourself, the more you feel upset because you see the distance.

And your mind begins to play tricks on you.

Like seriously, a lot of tricks.

but whatever it is, it's worth it. It's pointless to hold on to something that's not as worth it.

Philippians 3:8 "Yes, furthermore, i count everything as loss compared to the possession of the priceless privilege of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord and of progressively becoming more deeply and intimately acquainted with Him. For His sake I have lost everything and consider it all to be mere rubbish, in order that i may win Christ."

Yes, God is so worth it. I'm not psycho-ing myself or whatsoever. But it's the truth. He's so worth it.

Just need to get over with this. Stop thinking. Stop thinking.

Don't know how its going to work.

Don't know how its going to end.

Don't know what to do about it.

Don't know anything..

need divine help. need a sign.

Argh.. so much stuff going on.

Lord. all i want is just to fix my eyes on you, and your will for me.