Where would I be without you

Was just looking at my qts from last year during october and november. It was only then that i realised how God has really been faithful to me. Every single qt that i did at that point had the spirit of despair and helplessness entangled with it. It seemed at that point i was just in a loss, unsure of what was happening, and at the same time badly wanting the best of both worlds. At that point I didnt know how to let go and how to cling on strongly to God and His words, and that led me to my deepest pits in my life.

Even though whatever i wrote previously seems silly when i read it now, it reveals to me how blinded i was when i wasn't close to God and walking in His ways. The more i think of it the more touched i feel as to how God really didn't let me go. Despite my disobedience, my unfaithfulness, my dirtiness, my hypocrisy. God still drew me back to Him from the wilderness. At that point i thought i was some holy moly person, but i never was. And in fact, i don't think i can be that holy-moly perfect person like how others think Christians should be. No one is perfect i admit, but we should work towards perfection as said in 2 Cor 13:11.

Regardless, i'm in full of gratitude towards my Lord and Saviour who time and time again rescues me from my pits. And now from where i am, i look back and see how i was previously, and i can truly claim that God is indeed faithful and good.



Indeed as the song goes, "where would I be with out you [Jesus]".