Revelation 2:1-7

To the church in Ephesus 1"To the angel of the church in Ephesus write:

These are the words of him who holds the seven stars in his right hand and walks among the seven golden lampstands: 2I know your deeds, your hard work and your perseverance. I know that you cannot tolerate wicked men, that you have tested those who claim to be apostles but are not, and have found them false. 3You have persevered and have endured hardships for my name, and have not grown weary. 4Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken your first love. 5Remember the height from which you have fallen! Repent and do the things you did at first. If you do not repent, I will come to you and remove your lampstand from its place. 6But you have this in your favor: You hate the practices of the Nicolaitans, which I also hate. 7He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches. To him who overcomes, I will give the right to eat from the tree of life, which is in the paradise of God.


God reminding me not to forget the first love i had for Him, to rekindle that first love, that passion and that desire to see His name being lifted high. The passion for Jesus, so much so that it becomes a passion to tell others about Jesus Christ.


And yes, not forgetting the services spent at Heidi Baker's conference. It really changed my focus once again, smacked me right in the face with four words: 'Love God, Love your neighbours'. Although this was the theme mainly focused during this conference, there were other things that God spoke to my heart as well. Things such as faith and courage to take that bold step of faith to do the works of God, trusting and leaning upon His Holy Spirit.

During Altar Call and saturday night, i was quite shocked and thought i had spasms at first, but quite on the contrary. One of the leaders came to pray for me, and she kept asking God to 'fill me' with His love, with His courage so on and so forth. And just then i suddenly felt some thing run down my spine, like a jolt, and down to my tailbone, which then made me jerk upwards suddenly. I was like 'woah!'. And i knew this was not any normal occurance, i knew God was there, I knew He wanted to touch me so much, and I knew He had answered my prayers.

There was this other occurance on sunday night. I remembered asking God to be able to discern in terms of how others feel and to be able to see past the people's masks. Then during Heidi Baker's worship session, while she prayed for us to have our spiritual eyes to be opened, my eyes were closed shut and i was concentrating on God. I tried very hard to open them, but i COULD NOT. I'm serious, my eyes were just shut, and I heard that still voice in my head saying that God was working on my eyes, my perspectives, God was not done yet and that He was healing my spiritual eyes. I could not open them at all. It was only til after the worship session when I was able to effortlessly open them once again. It may seem unbelievable, but HEY, God is a God who makes ALL things possible.


Dear Heavenly Father,
I thank you for those instances where i could see your hand doing your works for us, your people. I pray that you continue to instill more of your love into our hearts so that we, in turn, may go out to bless the people in our nation. Lord use me. And Lord, i pray that you bring me back to the first love i had for you. Bring me back to the passions i once had for you, because Lord you deserve ALL THINGS, ALL PRAISES, ALL GLORY, and ALL HONOUR. Lord teach me to be fully dependent on your Holy Spirit, and i cry out desperately for my spiritual ears to be open so that i may hear so clearly from you O Lord.

Thank you O Lord, for your grace and mercy over my life. And Lord i pray you forgive those who say mean things about you. And even still, teach us how to make that stand, to protect your glorious name from being blasphemed. Sorry Lord for the times we have failed not to do so, but Lord from now on, give us the courage and the strength to make that stand for you.

All these in your name i pray,
Amen.