New level, New devil.

New level, New Refinement.

I've tried to PUSH like what we have been doing. And then i realised how so many more things have come into my life, trying to push me over. I know what tricks the devil is up to again, poking fun at my insecurities, at my inefficiency, at .... almost all my weaknesses. And once again, issues begin to pile up. But this time I declare that i have had enough! My God is a God of victory. I am more than a conqueror in Christ, and i can do all things through Christ who has strengthened me.

I thought i had overcome the whole self-pity mode, depression, etc (people might be wondering why i am pouring out my life here). And i did! However, because of that, that brings me on to a whole new level of obstructions. More than i have ever seen before. What God expects is for me not to fall back into that previous level of self-pity and so on.

But coming to think of it, even though it may seem that the devil is poking at all my weaknesses, God seems to be telling me that He is using this period to mould and shape me. Like how he is shaping that diamond i am supposed to be. Throughout the week, i have been scolded, told off, and spoken to. Even God has revealed to me the different weaknesses i have. People may regard this as spiritual attack, and how the devil is using people to pull me down. I think otherwise. I believe with all of my heart that God is using all these incidents to push me to far greater heights.

I mean, we have always been speaking of how we want to move further in our spiritual lives. But the only way we can attain that is if we allow God to mould our characters to become better people.

What really matters is our attitude towards the refining of our characters. How can we even grow if we refuse to change our mindsets?

Pardon my horrible usage of language. Have been speaking too much singlish.