A total waste of time, i think.

Prelims have officially ended. I can feel the sudden surge of freedom, well, maybe just a little, after the thought that Os would be just a month or two away. Hmmm. Thoughts: I thought i didn't like people who got emotional easily. But then again, i realised that i too was like that. So perhaps, it's just me hating my own attitude. Oh well, waha. Sometimes, things get so mixed up, that seeing the wide perspective was always a chore. Not that the narrow one would be easy, but to change from one perspective to another is rather hard. It's always easier to see the overall situation as the third party, so why can't i be the third party of my own life?

The strange thoughts of my life.

Should i be angry? Sad? Or pretend to be ultra happy? Hmm. Maybe i am happy, until the return of the evil monster. Hmm. Ok, maybe not evil, but just, monster.

I should be happy, really, there's nothing to be sad about. If it comes, it comes, if it goes, it goes. I do find being both happy and sad a chore. Why isn't there an emotional limbo? What's there in my mind? Nothing? Studies? Biology? History? blah blah blah? Hmmm. I really don't know. Ok, maybe its just my mood swinging. But i really don't know how to feel, what to do, and even what to say. All i m doing now is just living the day as it comes. Hiding and suppressing every emotion behind the rock of my heart, digging a deep hole into my mind to bury every hurt in it. Wait, did i? Argh. I'm weirdly strange and strangely weird today. See? I even make bizarre sentences like that! 0_o

Argh!!! What's wrong with me?!?

*Wawnie stares in the mirror for a moment as she says all these, and runs away with a fear that she herself could never understand*