Sometimes, i do feel things are dumb.
Like how much you wished for something to happen, and you think that it's already happenning, and then you realise that it was just all your great creative mind.
It's like a mixture of all kinds of hormones?
Feelings?
Emotions?
Ah, heck.
And yes, you see that i have not cry. But that's because everything is just hidden perfectly.
Tears? Pain? They were suppose to be out of my dictionary. But time to time, they pop in in ransack the mind.
The heart? It tells lies.
Even more so when everything to you seems like its real.
I realised that i have been harbouring a lot on the issue of non-fiction and fiction. Is there something wrong with my brain? Okay, this has got to stop. But its hard.
(Ack, now people think i'm schizo.)
Why this? Because it just takes place, as though naturally. It's a constant gaze, that keeps me wondering. A little tingling in the heart. Just that warmth sensation. And the heart falls down.
No, i ain't having a crush, neither am i being desperate. But just a view from my overly complex mind. (i shall stick out my tongue now.) So mind you, do not speculate.
So what do you think of the above? Unchristian-like? Or just some normal ordinary girl who has no life saying all these. Sigh. I need to change again.
O Lord, i know positive-thinking should be the right attitude. But it's hard. Teach me how to see things with your eyes, to talk and speak like how Jesus would when He was still on Earth. Lord i want to learn to be more like you. To take away all that emotions. To take a step back from all those past hurts and regrests. To resist the little sensations of the heart. Just to be the light onto your people.
I know O Lord, that you have already someone in place for me. And you'll show him to me in the right time. But Lord, for now, keep my heart and mind pure, keep them just for yourself. Lord, i surrender my emotions, my everything to you. Take my life and mould me. Lord I pray you shut the gates of which the devil uses to tempt me, and be my one and only conscious that i hear every single day. That every thought that lingers in my mind, and every word i speak, and every action that i make, would be from you.
I thank you Lord, once again, for being so gracious to me. Lord I give you all the glory and honour,
in Jesus' name i pray
Amen.
Like how much you wished for something to happen, and you think that it's already happenning, and then you realise that it was just all your great creative mind.
It's like a mixture of all kinds of hormones?
Feelings?
Emotions?
Ah, heck.
And yes, you see that i have not cry. But that's because everything is just hidden perfectly.
Tears? Pain? They were suppose to be out of my dictionary. But time to time, they pop in in ransack the mind.
The heart? It tells lies.
Even more so when everything to you seems like its real.
I realised that i have been harbouring a lot on the issue of non-fiction and fiction. Is there something wrong with my brain? Okay, this has got to stop. But its hard.
(Ack, now people think i'm schizo.)
Why this? Because it just takes place, as though naturally. It's a constant gaze, that keeps me wondering. A little tingling in the heart. Just that warmth sensation. And the heart falls down.
No, i ain't having a crush, neither am i being desperate. But just a view from my overly complex mind. (i shall stick out my tongue now.) So mind you, do not speculate.
So what do you think of the above? Unchristian-like? Or just some normal ordinary girl who has no life saying all these. Sigh. I need to change again.
O Lord, i know positive-thinking should be the right attitude. But it's hard. Teach me how to see things with your eyes, to talk and speak like how Jesus would when He was still on Earth. Lord i want to learn to be more like you. To take away all that emotions. To take a step back from all those past hurts and regrests. To resist the little sensations of the heart. Just to be the light onto your people.
I know O Lord, that you have already someone in place for me. And you'll show him to me in the right time. But Lord, for now, keep my heart and mind pure, keep them just for yourself. Lord, i surrender my emotions, my everything to you. Take my life and mould me. Lord I pray you shut the gates of which the devil uses to tempt me, and be my one and only conscious that i hear every single day. That every thought that lingers in my mind, and every word i speak, and every action that i make, would be from you.
I thank you Lord, once again, for being so gracious to me. Lord I give you all the glory and honour,
in Jesus' name i pray
Amen.
posted by dawnie @ 5:47 AM
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