Was reading the old posts (nostalgy *sniff*), and decided to do some shoutouts. It's been awhile since i've done so:

here goes:


A shoutout to people of 07S305:

Megan: See you're first on the list. Muaha. Thanks for always being there for me, and for always encouraging me when i feel down and far away from God. You have been a really great influence and friend to me, and you are GREATLY TREASURED! MUAHA.

Naq: Hello my dearest HOT friend who can dance really really well. You have been really dear to me and thanks for always telling me where i'm wrong and giving me great suggestions on how i can overcome the situations. You're a great class chairperson, and i really really really admire your preserverance and determination to do stuff. :D

Cat: MOLEY MOLEY!!! We must sooooooo go for a shopping outing one day okay okay! HAHA. And yes, you're like the most patient person i've seen lah, although i have seen you blown up a couple of times. But most of the time they still feel very mild, and gentle, and 'un-blown up'. WAHA.. But wait, that's a good thing ya? At least you know that you have that patient soul. WAHA. And you're very dear to me as welllllllll!!!!!! WOOT.

Dicky: I don't know if you'll ever read this, but thanks for always, and ALWAYS tolerating my nonsense, and for always being patient with my paranoic actions. Thanks for never getting angry with me and for always sacrificing your time and efforts and sleep just for me. You're one great dude and you've really impacted my life a lot. Thanks for being there for me! HAHA. And i'll never ever forget your smelly-ness of not bathing during OGL camp, and when you wear your triton tee. MUAHA.

Jeremy: Heya dude, you're one great guy! And keep up with all that house comm and np stuff! We've been working so long together during pw, and you are really that responsible and enthu chap out there. And yes, you're the HOTTEST INDIAN I'VE EVER SEEN! Okay, but i'll never know if you ever read this. MUAHA.

Song Leng: OI! THANKS FOR PANG SEH-ING ME DURING COUPLE DANCE HOR. hahaha. Just kidding. Anyways, just wanna thank you as well for tolerating my sticky-ness during MMM and my nonsense. Just to let you know that you're really good in just striking up conversations, be it someone you know, or someone you don't know. You make a great friend and thanks for being my company during OGL camp. I've really appreciated the way you actually bothered to help me keep my stuff and not complain or show faces or anything, and yes, even though i may seem indifferent and arrogant about it, just to let you know that i'm not and that i really do appreciate your efforts for carrying my stuff and all. YOU ROCK! :D

Jay: Hey, even though we're not so close or anything, but just wanna let you know that i appreciate the friendship ya. And feel free to ask any questions related to Christianity or anything, i won't bite your head off i promise. HAHA. And thanks for letting us go to your house and stuff. And yes, will be praying for your rashes to get healed ya! :D

Hakim, Rach, Yun Zhi: You all are doing a GREAT job in council, and we the people of 305 really appreciate it sooooo much. Keep it up! And never ever ever feel tired or feel like giving up okay. :D You'll definitely reap a good harvest if you continue to do what's right. YEP! :D

And to all those that i did not mention, it doesn't mean i hate you guys or anything. I love you allllll sooooo much too! I'll write for each and everyone of you 07S305 people one day ya! LOVE YOU ALL TO BITS.



Okay, pardon me for my weird lovey-dovey mood. It's 2 in the morning and i m feeling all cranky right now. Hey, but whatever i said did matter, and really did come from my heart. :D So love ya all!

*bounces off*

It's strange how when you look around, you realise that there are dozens of other similar people around you; christians. But everytime you wish and pray for someone else to get saved, it's just so hard. Why is that O Lord?

Have we not prayed enough? Are we not ernest enough? And it breaks my heart how certain things cannot grow just because of this barrier. What is that that we should do so that you will turn these hearts back to you O Lord?

Inferiority.
Lord Father, to me it always seems like Christians always turn out to be big shots in the world. But why am i not? If not big shots, then very popular amongst the people. Lord is there something that i've done wrong? It feels more like i've given up so many things to come to you, but i've been going the wrong direction everytime i do so. I know by removing all activities just to free time does not mean anything. But Lord, how was i to know til you said so the other day? Now it's like the point of no return.

Lord are you teaching me to be humble?
O Lord, help me then. Teach me how to just focus on you. Give me clean hands, and a pure heart. Help me not to seek other things. Help me to be in that generation that seeks your face, O Lord of Jacob. Teach me how to do your works with the correct motive, with You as my only motive.

And then, it felt like there was no one.
Lord, remember how i spent my bored days at home. At that point of time i felt as if i had no one left. Or more of as though i knew not many people, or to make it more precise, i had few close friends. I spent my days rotting away at home, complaining to myself, to everyone, that i was so bored. And Lord, yet i could forget to spend enough time with you. Lord i'm so sorry. Remind me time to time about how the Israelites complained and never were allowed into the promised land. Lord Father, i know you have your plans and purposes, and you'll walk by my side whether it feels as though i'm alone or not.


Regardless of the above statements,
Lord help me to make you Lord of all.









It's a letting go and yet pulling back situation due to fear of unforeseen circumstances, or probably for the fear of foxes there to steal, nibble off those fruits that you have been waiting for.


It's a paranoic situation (though reasons may be unjust).

The end of our PW days. This post should have been up earlier, apologies for the delay. And i only remember that it occured on some wednesday. HA, oh well.

Memories:

Our group












Our class held a small party to celebrate the end of PW days and to commemorate our class being together for 1 last time.


Cake that Naq bought for the class




Class photo, with Ms Koh and the teddy bear we bought her.




(Little scandals?)






Group photo









We went over to Megan's house at night for some havoc time, turned out we only watched some thai horror movie and V for vendetta. Ordered pizza too.
Here goes:












Yep, that's about it. Anyways, today was spent on sending my grandparents off to hongkong (lucky them), and shopping with my mom for girl stuff. Mummy's the best! Dad offered to pay for everything. Didn't let him pay for my bag for fear that i wouldn't use it if others had the same thing and then feel bad about it because it wasn't my money used.

It's been weird not talking to Dicky for so long. We talked for a while through sms during his dinner break. Spent less than a 5 msgs on the conversation and he had to continue on with his camp. And that weak boy is sick again. Expected. Oh well. The girls are all so busy and they can't accompany me and rid me of my boredom. Trying to bug Chuan Rui again to go out with me tomorrow, though it would be quite odd since we've not been talking for ages ever since he left for his china exchange programme.

Have been spending too much time with my dearest lappy.

Dear Lappy,
i can't spend too much time with you now,
i've been neglecting my social life,
my study life,
and even my physical health.

I know you'll miss me,
and i too,

but we have to part sooner or later,
and i choose that time for it to be now.

i'm sorry dearest lappy,
but that's all that i have to do.


And somehow i'm just too glued to your golden colour,
your stylish curves,
and your wonderful system.

I can't bare to part with you anymore.



Hmmm. okay, getting a little cranky already.
Lappy = Laptop

for those who are too silly to realise.



Argh i'm beginning to miss silly now, lumpy. Hurry and come back.

I'm bored..

Nothing to do...

Everyone's busy....

Dicky's gone for camp and will only come back on thurs, on which he'll have some wedding dinner to attend to.
Meg and Cat have tennis training, and Meg, Jeremy, Jay and Hakim will be working around this week.
Naq is busy with dance and can't go out after that.


OH MAN. The feeling of nothing to do.
Shall bug Chuan Rui some day when he's free.
LALALA.

Here are the Hari Raya photos:


we were all watching AMV, and this turned out to be a random shot.




Jeremy with the hot stuff.






This picture is hilarious. Seems like some evil vampire movie thingum.








Cat trying to pull off an artistic shot.






They were waiting for dicky and i because my heels were killing me and we were lagging behind.


Unglam!






















Family photo!



Hari Raya visiting was a really good experience, and we ate lots of good food. Hakim's mom cooks brilliant fried noodle thingums, and Naq's mom cooks really good fried chicken. We visited a total of 6 houses and ended off at around midnight.

Will upload the hari raya photos in the next post.

Now time for OGL camp.



Was rather boring, except for the last day which consisted of Wet and Wild games. Cheng Yew, Si lin, Valerie and i were in the same group for WnW game i/c. We merged with the other group which consisted of only Guo Hao and Sze Ying that day. Our game was the obstacle course, and OGLs had to crawl under the tables through this path which was 'spammed' with tomato sauce, detergent, flour, toothpaste and lots of water. The game was so dirty and smelly! And i really admired how the OGL groups were so willing to crawl through it and remained high. Naq's group came to my station too, and i threw a humoungous water bomb at her when she was crawling through. LOL! Well, she ran after me to give me a smelly disgusting (:p) hug after the station. HAHA. My group came too and they too ran after me with flour and water bombs.

MMM was really tiring, and poor Jian Rui (bodykong) had to spend 7 bucks on travelling just because his ez link card got retained by some evil bus uncle. Song Leng was really nice to help me keep my stuff in his bag and accompanied me whenever i was walking alone. Our MMM zone destinations were from Pasir Ris (school) to Toa Payoh (madness) to Orchard back to Bedok to Tampines to BUGIS and THEN back to SCHOOL. The last part was a little waste of time, and we felt so cheated. But then again, it was through this that our group managed to bond a little closer. We did some exercising as well while running (chionging) for the stations. Not bad, not bad.

TMP was held at night and we saw 2 flying cockroaches. Nothing much to say about this event, it was quite silly, where they gave us a piece of a hard to read map of the school. For this game, our group wasn't that close yet, and so yes there were awkward moments.

Megan and i were in the same bunk, and she being her nice usual self offered to share with me her sleeping bag. The first night was so cold and she butted me literally as she tried some weird way of sleeping while covering herself with part of the sleeping bag. Hahaha. We all woke up with some part of ourselves aching, inevitable.

Dicky was also nice to help me keep my jacket before the camp started, and he being his dirty self didnt bathe the first night. HAHA. That probably explains his sudden growth of humoungous red spots on his face and neck.

Naq danced SO WELLLLL!!!!! And we were so amazed with her ability to memorise the new mass dance so quickly. HAHA. She was in a different bunk sadly, but she was the bunk i/c and her bunk was like one of the first few to arrange everything so neatly on the first day. Still teasing her about her 'sticking out butt' move. HAHA.

Faye was such a bobo, she forgot that she was going to thailand on the first night of camp and had to rush off. And after that she realised that her father also signed her up for some creative thinking course at the same time. So in the end she forgoed her thailand trip and camp to go for the course she claimed boring. But she still came back for Wet and Wild. Haha!

CAT didn't come!!!! She was happily enjoying herself in Hong Kong. But she still brought back some KRISPY KREME DOUGHNUTS WHICH WHERE EXTREMELY YUMMY. WAHAAHA. She came to meet us after the OGL camp at century square though. HAHA. Missed her so much during camp lahh...

Camp was a good experience, although there was the inflexibilty of teachers and the food tasted bad. And the council did a very good job in holding this entire event, GOOD JOB!! I am awed by their preserverance and their determination to actually continue on whatever they were suppose to do even amidst all opposition and lethargy. I salute to council. Woot!


And yes, my triton 7 group members are Hui Jing, Eunice, Samantha, Song Leng and Wei Guang. A very happy bunch of people, and i love you all to bits! :D


Thank God for this wonderful time i had in camp and for allowing me to stay on even though i was sick.

O Lord, i'm so sorry. I have not been putting enough time into the relationship with you. How could i for that period of time, decieve myself and say that everything's alright, when in actual fact it isnt? O Lord, thank you for opening my eyes, to let me see of your goodness and my need to depend on you. Lord Father, you are everything.

People think that i 've given up on certain stuff, and they speculate, without proper information. I just don't know what to do. It's as though i have nothing left. Nothing. I feel like i have not been doing enough for God, or even for the people.

I know i'm not approachable, and i do say that it's unfair just because i look arrogant, or have this certain what some may call 'scary' face. But i believe that it's still my fault for not acting on what i should have done, and still living in my own comfort zone just because i was afraid of the past rejections. O Lord, what am i to do? Help me!!

I've been living in the shadows of people, thinking that i'm well-liked, when actual fact, i 'm not. This is not some 'emo' session, but i'm just admitting what i've been seeing. It's inevitable that people are attracted to those who are caring, loving, warm, blah blah blah, and i know i'm not one of those who get attracted to. I thought i was, but now i know.

Maybe all i need is just a touch of Jesus again, to refresh me, to rejuvenate me, to renew me. Yes, that's all i need. O Lord, i need your guidance, guide and direct me to where i should go in life. Teach me how to be good, and good in all my ways. Lord, no more judging, no more gossipping, instead Lord, fill me with your love. Even though i have been asking so much to be able to love, but Lord, help me to take action, teach me how to do so.

Lord, i know you have something in store for me, so tell me O Lord, tell me when you think i'm ready. Lord, i don't want to waste my time out there, doing stupid meaningless things. Lord, i want more, i want to do more for you. Not for name's sake, but for the love of you O Lord. Lord, i don't want to be the Christian who has fun, but the the Christian who has fun and works at the same time for you, and also spend loads of quality time with you O Lord.

I don't care anymore whether i get recognition or anything from the world, help me to focus and fix my eyes upon you. Help me to be satisfied with your pleasure, help me to understand that all the praises and acceptance i need is just from you.

Lord, these are my cries to you.


I thank you Lord for the good things that you have in place for me. I praise you for the wonderful things that you are going to do for me. YOU ROCK JESUS!! AND I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!!!


In Jesus' name i pray

Amen.

Here are the latest updates of my life. Haven't been blogging lately, but oh well, changed the blogskin. Couldn't stand the whole 'press-the-button' thing, gets a lil' annoying at times.

Well, so life, is as usual...

J1 Bash at Club MoMo aka Plush:

























Just a few photos.

Club was really sleazy, felt weird, dark, deafening, blinding, ah whatever. In any case, everyone went delirious at the end and my entire class was literally on the dance floor dancing. Eye opening, good experience. But wouldn't want to step there again. Stayed over at Andrew's house with Jem, Dicky, Jay, Mel and Meg after that and watched Red Eye. Meg and Andrew were the only ones left awake to continue the night with the Exorcism of Emily Rose.

Look above for Hari Raya updates