Photos

Here are some really outdated photos, there are probably of some importance to why i'm uploading them still. Hee.




Days before my total liberation, and Char was always there.




Here's Vanessa!! I love the outfit! :p



Sarah's love letter. Hee.

Events. Yay.

Heya. Here's the really outdated posts of the past events. Hee.

Metamorphosis

Great time spent with the WONDERFUL ONES. And yes, my catch phrase was: "Even if we don't win, we still win.". And even though we lost, the whole lot of us enjoyed our time and had plenty of fun. Char didn't come, sadly, she had chalet or something. But during that time, Shenna and i were missing her like crazy.

Here's it:



My lovely team. Hee.

Okay, i must admit that the best 'dumb' time i had was with Shenna at night. We snuck out of church to go SPC even though it was lights off session. And we figured that no matter what we did, (eg. Singing, dancing etc.) the locks of the gates wouldn't come off. (i was just exaggerating. Mind you.) So, we climbed out. It was stupid in a way that we were so afraid of heights that we got stuck on top of the gates for quite a while, and found out the really small heights of the gates.

Here's more:


(Gabsy took this for us, and we didn't get into trouble. Hooray!)

We took this when we first got up the gates and got really scared:



And this i've got to share:
We sat on the stairs to eat with Coral and Maddie. Shenna had to bend down for some unknown reason, and there was a really loud thunderous boom. (It came from her butt, so you should be able to guess what was it.) It was HILARIOUS!!! The Girly girl Shenna = the Farty fart Shenna. (Pardon me for the really bad comparisons.) Hmm. I thought Jarrold too made a really loud farting sound when he was sleeping, haha. But it was really dark, so we couldn't see the facial expressions of a farting person. No evidence.

Haha. All in all, Meta camp was GREAT. Thank you Comm!

Wednesday

Gave Shenna a HUGE birthday surprise. Hee. Although a little 'acting' was required. Char, Gaius and Jarrold probably had a great time massaging the chicken in Pastor Mark's house too. Hee.

I've got a few pics:



Sorry for the blurish effect, i was probably laughing when i took this. hee.



An unsuccessful picture taken during the period of 'acting'.


A better taken picture than the previous, although there are huge resemblances of tigers.


Thursday

Got a little weird-ish then. So pardon me for my extreme 'schizo'ness.

Saturday

PRAISE AND WORSHIP was just so awesome!! God really moved SOO mightily during the service, almost 3 quarter of the congregation were down on their knees worshiping. And not only that, the band did SOO well! The Holy Spirit really led the entire worship, we ended up playing extra songs like Rain down and Saturate me. And really, it was so good. I felt like during the worship when i was playing the piano, the fingers were just being moved by something else, like as if i weren't controlling them, and i believe so much that the Holy Spirit had taken control. The Holy Spirit even led me to make some riffs just like that, *snaps finger*. SOOO COOL!!!! I really can't wait for more services. AHH!!! *Faints*

Sunday (Hey it's today!)

Hmm. Nothing much happened. I just know that it's my very first liberated Sunday of the year, and it was super boring. Char went off early to her Grandma's house, Shenna had dance, Sarah had some leaders session, Jarrold didn't want to eat dinner, and Emmanuel vanished into thin air. Had Leader's retreat camp briefing this morning. The Ascension. Sounds exciting, and yes, i got a little traumatised by the seriousness just now from Roland. Sorry Ben for not standing up for you. I promise that after the camp, i would be CHANGED! Woohoo. I really need that new refreshed courage from God.

We discussed it in the studio, and here's what i got from IAN:



Look at his quadraple chins, and his armpit hair! Haha!

Okay i shall run off to discuss plans with Char and Shenna tmr.

*Wawnie 'lala's her way off*

Will post past events soon.


It hurts. It really does.
If only you all understood
how important you all are to me.

If only you would stop avoiding.
If only you could share my deepest emotions.
If only.

Please come back..

(Another symphony)
You give and take away.
You give and take away.
My heart will choose to say,
Lord blessed be your name.

~~~~~~~~


Listen to the sound of the blowing confusion.
Ain't it blasting?

Oh Lord. Help me.

Sunday. Camp.

*Wawnie un-presses the 'hold' button*

So here's today's post:

Today.

Today.

Erm, today.....

(Oh stop beating around the bush)

Okay, today we went for CE! Yay! Despite the really late starbucks outing the previous night, we still made it! And sadly, Michelle, Alvin, and Maddie didn't make it. Argh. Our disappointments. Hee. Anyways, we still had a great time of slacking around and sleeping in the Youth room, although most of the time we were talking and fiddling with things around us.

Service was really good, i thought i would have fallen asleep, but the sermon so good and mind-catching that it woke me up wide awake. Haha. It really spoke to me, about being a warrior for Christ. Yep, and it is so true that we indeed need to have Perserverance, Obedience, and Praise. The POP, like what Pastor Mark calls it. hee. It's good, really!

Hmm. I can't wait for the camps, Meta camp, Leaders camp, YM camp and YA camp. I'm thinking more of an OBS when i heard about the Leaders' retreat camp. I really wonder if it's going to be about the same or worse. OH well, it's still going to be super exciting and mind-blowing. Whoopee. (Disclaimer: please do not think that i'm trying to make a good image or anything, because i really do think that it's going to be super wow-ness. Sorry for the bimbotic langauge. Blame it on the sudden urge of using stupid words)

Tommorrow, one last paper til the total liberation from exams. Why total? Because we have experienced partial liberation on Friday. Ain't it exciting (Sacarstically please). I just can't wait to torture the P6s and all. Torture as in play, i'm not mean. Hee.

AAH. I'm super excited that i'm already getting sleepy.

So here's one last comment:

The doll jumps for joy,
as she hears those familiar voices heading towards her.
She awaits the good news,
hopefully.

*Wawnie prances around the room, forgets that she's not a horse, and whacks the cupboard by accident*

Saturday Cell outing

Yesterday was mega, okay maybe not mega, but quite fun!
It has been a long time since time has begun to move at a slower pace once again.
hee.
Hear my desperation.

Hmm, anyway. We had cell outing yesterday, and it turned out to be more of a 'three-quarter-of-the-GOP' outing instead. The other half were probably at the zoo or some mime play thing.

Met Emmanuel at tampines interchange at supposedly 8.30am (which also meant 9am), and took bus 10 til the bus stop nearer to sennett and met Sarah, Hosea, and Joel Chew on the bus. And yes, everyone was tired, and groggy, and yet happy and cheery. (Sorry for my ultra contrasting language) Nelson came on the bus at nearer to katong area.

We ended up at harbour front. And yes, the usual temptations of shopping did come at the sight of vivo, but sadly, there wasn't much time for any. Besides, hardly any shops were open that early. SO,... like what you all expected, SENTOSA. Yep, the terrifying heated up burning sands of the fiery and yet entertaining SENTOSA.

Applied my SPF 130 sun block, and didnt get much sunburns. My neck still got a little burnt though, due to my rather forgetful brain, trusting it to remind me to put sun block on the neck as well. Oh well. Now it hurts real bad, Char i need your aloe vera! Haha.

Learnt how to play volleyball (the most effective thing of the day) and played both dai dee (is that how you spell it?) and bridge under the comfort of the tree shades. After basking around under the hot sun, we left for marina to have steam boat. Felt really tired on the journey back to the harbour front mrt station though. Didn't know why, and had that sudden 'shitty' feeling again, like the 'all-the-horrible-thoughts-come-together' mood. But all was gone when i met my darling SHENNA, and jarrold. Lol!

Steamboat was quite alright. The usual stuff, and this time, 4 boxes of life prawn. Woah. They were jumping around in the box, and it looked quite gross. (Remember: sea cockroaches) Danellia and Lucas were busy cooking the prawns (more of making sure they don't jump out of the boiling water), while Shenna and i were peeling the shells from the cooked prawns. The rest, were playing dota. It was rather disturbing when they didn't even mutter a little two words called 'thank you', when they came back and started eating the deliciously peeled, buttered and barbequed prawns. Hmm. Oh well, guys this days. Argh.

Gracie was so cute, she didnt know that the bus would make a loop back to the mrt station, and she spent a really really long time looking for the opposite bus stop. In the end she came back and asked for help. So cute la.

Ahhh, yes! The best part of the entire day. This deaf and mute guy came to us and started advertising toys, trying to sell them to us. And since Shenna and Jarrold were sitting together listening to some music and stuff, he went to jarrold and showed him the 'i-know-you-love-her-very-much-so-buy-her-a-toy' gesture. It was HILARIOUS, especially the classic moments of Jarrold taking his earpiece out of his ear, pointing his index finger upwards (wonder why he did that) and pushing his chair back, all in SLOW MO. I LOVED the moments! I loved it so so much!

Ha.

Although there were a little conflicts from the musician team for awhile due to certain and rather stupid misunderstandings, (i vented my frustration on a few ppl by accident, sorry!) all went well, and good. And like what everyone would know, we all went home with still a little sand stuck in our hair, and with sticky and smelly shirts.

Sang a really loud birthday song to Shenna too in the mrt. Those special moments, of mere embarassments. Hee. (Sorry for the sadistic thoughts)

I think i should type today's stuff in another post.

*Wawnie presses the 'hold' button on the phone*

I was thinking of getting a perm, but then again, what hair is there to perm?
Ack. Hate the littleness of hair (hair on the head, just to let the sick, perverse people know)

Ha.
Today went for extra history lessons, (which will probably be the last :\), and went for extra a math tuition, (which will also probably be the last. :s). Went for prayer after that. Wondered why my ear went red and warm suddenly. Probably my arterioles dilating due to the warm weather, wait, i was in an air-con room. Hmm? Ah. Nothing to worry about, ain't that important.

Countdown: 3 more papers! Woot!
I need my retail theraphy, hopefully we can go vivocity on saturday first before we go sentosa. (please please) Probably hoping to bug char's cell at marina steamboat place at night too. Hee. (wait change it to: teehee. Just to be a little lame. Ha.)

Let's see, there's A Math paper tmr, followed by history on friday, and whalaa! (Don't think that's spelt correctly) A math paper, we suspect, may be tougher than paper 1. Much tougher. Ack, really hoping that we would be able to tackle and kick and slap and whack and pinch and squash and slaughter, the questions together. Woot!

History: Studied Russia, China, Japanese aggression. Ahhhh!! That's all?!? Eek. I still have Causes of WWI, War in Europe and Fall of communism. Can i skip the war in europe part??? (No..)

Sorry for being schizo. (too lazy to find out the actual spelling once again)

My sister is eating jelly behind me, making lots of slurping noises. How rude. (Nah, just kidding)
She has finally walked off after the minute of slurping and burping. Haha. Love her to bits.

Okay this may not be me but here goes:

Shoutouts:

My beloved Char: My beloved char!!
My beloved Shenna: My beloved Shenna!!
Jarrold: You and your gameboy. -_-
Anyone else: I love you all!

Eek. I sound cheesy. Sorry, but i think you have been reading from the wawnie imposter. Please read again later. No more proses or like what some of you all may call it: depressed writings, for today. I'm in a 'i-don't-care-about-that-problem-now-as-it-is-a-waste-of-my-time' mood, so yes, that explains it all.

I shall go run off and bathe. Hee.
Still thinking about the perm, what if my hair all falls off. (Nevermind, you'll still have things called the wig) Ack. And what if my hair looks ultra short. Eek! I'll think about it. Oh well.

Tata all!

*Wawnie blows kisses and gives a sheepy smile*

3 more papers!

Woot! 3 more papers! It's all over!! OVER!! Ever heard of the word: OVER!?!?!?

This is superly exciting, no words can ever express the amount of excitment i'm trying to display right now. Hmm.

Even if the exams are over, stupid things would still cramp up my mind. (Get away)

JC enterprises. Going down. Sigh. I want a break from that, it's not all my responsiblity. Can i wait til after my A levels, or after poly or something? Can i, can i? I just feel like stepping down for a few moments, get myself right, and run again. Can't all competitors take a slower jog in the race instead?

Oh God, why? I really need your help.

Yes, that would probably be just 5% of the 'stupid' things that have been cramping up in my mind, and mind you, i'm not depressed or anything. (Just expressing my innermost expressions, which is nothing offensive. So smile and be happy. =) )

Everyone thinks that most of my posts are, hmm, depressing. Are they really? Or is it just me? Art! Come on peeps, say it with me: Art! Not as if my english language is superb or anything, but ain't it nice to display such thoughts in this, hmm, indirect manner? Okay, i think it is really just me. Ugh.

I'm just longing for the 25th Nov, whoopee! Praise and worship night, it's going to be awesome!

Oh and yes, today's A math paper 1 was relatively good, in a sense that 90% of the questions were 'do-able'. Couldn't call up Jarrold to check, i think his phone got confiscated, poor thing. Hmm, lost probably around 4 marks though due to some mistake in the vectors question. Oh well, what's done is done.

Ack, got to disappear once again.


*Wawnie disappears with a 'poof'*

The distance,
is like measuring pluto from the sun.

The cold,
cannot be compared to the North Pole.

My words,
fewer than precious stones.
Your words,
nothing.

Fairytale?
Lies.

The glances,
just passing past.

That red thing,
already in shatters.

O levels pt 2

Sing: What a wonderful world..... of Wawnie!

Yes. Please applaud.

Okay, maybe i was just bored.
Had english and physics paper yesterday. The one word was: dreams! Fun topic, although my brain was already squeezed dry of ideas. Ack.
Physics was quite normal, less tough than chemistry. Wonder why. Hmm.

Today may not be as good as expected, biology was a little, or i would say stupid. I feel so lousy. (I've let you down Mrs Bok!!) (sobs) Won't elaborate more, lest I get 'depressed'.

But i think that God really has His purpose for me, the answer would be known when i get my results back. Shall just prepare for the upcoming papers first. E math tommorrow. (Sigh.)

Shenna told me about the sweet things Char said about us. (Muahaha!! I caught you now char.) We're feeling so touched!! *Pretends to sniff* Hee.

Everyone's probably still having their Geog paper, while i'm slowly turning the chair in the resource room from left to right. I need my rest. REST!!! WHERE ARE YOU. (And yes, i think i may have become a little retarded. Just a little, not a lot.)

There're SO many things that we can do after O levels, like staying over in Char's house and perhaps torturing her dog. (I hope she doesn't see this)
There's so much shopping to do, and so many places to cycle to. Saying all these already makes me get excited (i'm trying to bounce on my chair to make the 'excited' effect).

Got to run now.

*Wawnie bids farewell in a solemn tone, and then throws herself into a frenzy and begins to run all over the pastor's resource room*

O levels

Countdown to after o levels: an eternity.

Ack.

I wish you cared more.
I wish I was in there.
I wish you remembered.
I wish you knew.

Watched the covenant with Char, Sean Lee, and Joel Chew on Friday. The plot was unexpectedly lousy, and there was hardly any climax. I thought i could have been scared by the 'scary' parts, but it seemed more amusing then frightening. The 'powers' were more or less the same, (the throwing of small to big water balls depending on power).
Lame.

You are your lousy strategies.
Am i that unimportant?

Had a bad sore throat while doing math paper yesterday, and yes, it has developed into an irritating cough. I'm just praying that my nose wouldn't run.

Chemistry, was alright. There were quite a number of uncertainty, but i've checked and they were correctly down. So praise God. (No more social studies, and Chemistry. BURN THE BOOKS!!) <-- Blame it on exam stress. Tommorrow, another day of both rejoicing and sighing. Physics paper. Ack. No matter what,
I still bless you.
Harbouring bad thoughts, i know, ain't the answer.
(Whether or not you're reading this. You clearly know who you are.)

It's you who has changed.


*Wawnie pounces onto her physics book and tears the pages out*

Past? Present. Future?

Your past is a mystery,
and threatening.

Have you walked away from it?
Towards this path?

Shatters,
that's all i hear.
Everything else, the deafening sound of silence.


I feel insecure. (as if i wasn't for the entire time. Ugh.)
Why? I don't know. Or maybe i do, but i just won't admit.

A thin wall is still preventing any bursting.
But i doubt it's going to hold on any longer.

Is it really just me?
Argh.

Ever heard of the word: Loathe.
You'd probably won't understand.
Judgementalism.

What. How. Why.

Time.
I hope that's all you need.
I can't hold on much longer,
and there's probably all that i can give.

The breaking down of simpler substances,
it will happen soon.

Now for today's post.

You try to be a friend.
But don't you feel that gap?

I 'love' social studies. (Said in a really bored tone to show the importance of studying SS)
It's only 4 more days til the actual thing. And i'm barely prepared. WHY!!

Ack. I hate it so much, mere distraction brings me off the chair into another world of non-study.
Everyone else is probably mugging away like there's no tomorrow, while me? I'm living off everyday as if there is still a thousand and one more days til the exam.

Okay, that's precisely why i've stuck myself to the seat to study Economic strategies for sustainable growth. And yes, i'm studying infront of the computer, which says Microsoft Word (just to show that i'm using word to type stuff out).

I loved the jamming yesterday, finally learnt how to play the guitar and sing! Woot!! (I'm good, i'm good!)

oh shut up.

Visited Shenna's granddad on Tues, he's condition is improving so well! Thanks to the Lord. He really does work Miracles! From an almost dying old man, to a well-living stabalised man! Wow!

During the visit, we made this one new word: Butterina
We were bored, so mind you.

Butterina: A tiny Ballerina, with butterfly wings. Like fairies that you see in cartoons.

OR.
Can be used to insult a person. (ie. Instead of saying : 'you BUTT', say: 'you BUTTERINA')

And tada! A new word learnt!

Okay i'd better go back to learning the, rather 'interesting', Economic strategies for sustainable growth.

*Wawnie trots away*

Saturday's post

Your constant glances do make me wonder.

Okay, here's erm... Saturday's post. (i think)
Couldn't upload it that day, so here it goes:

I still can't remember the phrase that i wanted to use yesterday! Ack. Blame it on my low oxygen supplied brain.

You seem like you care, and sometimes not.
What are you. Trust: why?

Today we had YM service, didn't play as you all know. (already sobbed, so won't do it again) It was good, even though there were a little glitches and all. Gaius: No worries ya? You've done really well! Especially for a first try in the song, really.

On the spiritual side, service was good too. Went down straight after praise and worship for a movie: Pay it forward. It was quite touching, didn't finish the entire thing though as there was YA practice at 7.

Oh well. (Why do i not feel myself when typing this post? Sheesh) Okay, pardon me for being such a Schizophreniac(if that's how you spell it).

Played sustain for YA band. Worship was the bomb! Everyone was just soaked in God's presence, and really God's presence was like that tsunami tide, almost sweeping me off my own footing. It was just so awesome!

Yes, i may have 'complained' about my heels and back hurting, but really, nothing means more than the loving presence of God. It had been a long time since God refreshed me so much, and yes, here's a magic show:

Wawnie + God's presence = New Wawnie!!

Go brilliance of mine! :D Lame, i knew it.

But that was really how i felt just now. And i thank God so much for renewing me and rejuvenating me again. Woot!

I hate to say this, but there's really nothing much to blog about. Hmm. I'll add some unnecessary stuffies. Let''s see (Hey i even added an extra ' to 'let')..

Joash produced horrid fart smelling gas just now. (What do you expect from the Fart club? Hee)

Sarah's leaving for HongKong tomorrow, awww. We'll miss you!!

Char's a whole lot better!

Jarrold has an obscene video of Joash and the cushion from the youth room. (Beware to all those pillow-users from the Youth room)

Erm.. Argh. I don't know what else!!
Think.. Think..

I've got a whole stack of E and A math papers to do, yay! Thank you Daryl and Pamela.

Er..

I have not bathed?

I... I am Dawn.

And yes, as you can see, i have pretty much nothing else to say, so toodles!!

*Wawnie waves as hard as she can and gets cramps on her arms*