Sometimes it just feels too hard to keep up to the covenant i made with God, but time and time again God just remains faithful and reminds me about His goodness. Sometimes i admit i do question myself about the surrender of myself to God, but yet God still drops things along my way to remind me of the relationship i have with Him.
That day, i was quite upset about how tough keeping a covenant was, not to say that i fell for anyone or whatsoever. But its just that the act of total surrender especially in this aspect of life is indeed tough for me. I cried out to God during my quiet time, literally. I asked God to help me, to help me be focused on Him.
And PRAISE GOD, the next day i got a chance to speak one of my seniors and i realised that we were in the same boat. Then i knew that i wasn't alone, and that nothing is too tough for me to handle. I felt more encouraged to continue on. And not only that, my sister happened to watch the Passion of Christ on the internet, and when i took a glance at it, it played the part where Jesus was at the garden of Getsemethe (if that's how u spell it). The show did elaborate quite a bit, but indeed when Jesus was praying, the devil was sure to have tempted him away, to have placed discouragement and questions in Jesus' s heart. Then it was then when i was reminded of how the devil, from afar, would keep discouraging me, distracting me, and even making me question about the covenant i had with God. But in the show, it showed that Jesus ignored the devil's comments and placed His eyes on God, and yes that reminds me too that i should instead of dwelling in whatever thoughts i had, to fix my eyes on God and the wonderful things that are going to happen through Him.
Then i walked over to my parent's room, and during that time, Star movies was showing the book of esther. Quite unbelievable, but yes, it was just there. And the part i saw was that Esther, regardless of how scared she could have felt, persisted in seeking refuge for her people. The part of her perseverance and faith in God really spoke to me. It showed me how, regardless of the toughness covenants were and even reaching out to the lost was, that i should persevere and have faith in God. Galations 6:9 "Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up".
After watching the show, i went ahead with reading the book of Esther. And it spoke of how Esther had to go through beauty treatments before she was fit for the King. And in the same way, i believe that God is sending me to have "beauty treatments", to refine my character and behaviour, and even fine-tune the relationship i have with Him, so that in due time, i would be a woman of God. It was then, when i realised that God was really helping me with my covenant. I am indeed so grateful for it, for who am i to deserve all these grace and mercy that God has shown me.
Even during the Good Friday service, it spurred me on to live for Jesus even more because of what He had done for me. It was through the service that i felt Jesus's presence in my heart and surroundings increase and suddenly made more realistic. My love for Jesus has also increased so much that every single day i just want to make sure that He's there beside me. And i really thank God for the state that i'm in now, and for His gift of the Holy spirit in which He reminds me to speak to God everywhere i go.
God is just so wonderful. And i'm so glad that each day, i get to talk to Him, just like how i would talk to a best friend.
Lord, i really really thank you so much for the love you've shown me. Each and everyday has become more and more exciting. Without you, i am nothing. And Lord, i just pray that you'll be so close to me as well, that one day i'll be able to hear you say that i am your best friend. Lord i just LOVE you SOOOO much, and for all the things that you have done for me. Thank you so much dear Lord.
In Jesus' name i pray,
Amen.
Ps. Pardon the grammatical errors (if any) above. Wrote this quickly as there were too many things to write and i was too excited. :D
That day, i was quite upset about how tough keeping a covenant was, not to say that i fell for anyone or whatsoever. But its just that the act of total surrender especially in this aspect of life is indeed tough for me. I cried out to God during my quiet time, literally. I asked God to help me, to help me be focused on Him.
And PRAISE GOD, the next day i got a chance to speak one of my seniors and i realised that we were in the same boat. Then i knew that i wasn't alone, and that nothing is too tough for me to handle. I felt more encouraged to continue on. And not only that, my sister happened to watch the Passion of Christ on the internet, and when i took a glance at it, it played the part where Jesus was at the garden of Getsemethe (if that's how u spell it). The show did elaborate quite a bit, but indeed when Jesus was praying, the devil was sure to have tempted him away, to have placed discouragement and questions in Jesus' s heart. Then it was then when i was reminded of how the devil, from afar, would keep discouraging me, distracting me, and even making me question about the covenant i had with God. But in the show, it showed that Jesus ignored the devil's comments and placed His eyes on God, and yes that reminds me too that i should instead of dwelling in whatever thoughts i had, to fix my eyes on God and the wonderful things that are going to happen through Him.
Then i walked over to my parent's room, and during that time, Star movies was showing the book of esther. Quite unbelievable, but yes, it was just there. And the part i saw was that Esther, regardless of how scared she could have felt, persisted in seeking refuge for her people. The part of her perseverance and faith in God really spoke to me. It showed me how, regardless of the toughness covenants were and even reaching out to the lost was, that i should persevere and have faith in God. Galations 6:9 "Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up".
After watching the show, i went ahead with reading the book of Esther. And it spoke of how Esther had to go through beauty treatments before she was fit for the King. And in the same way, i believe that God is sending me to have "beauty treatments", to refine my character and behaviour, and even fine-tune the relationship i have with Him, so that in due time, i would be a woman of God. It was then, when i realised that God was really helping me with my covenant. I am indeed so grateful for it, for who am i to deserve all these grace and mercy that God has shown me.
Even during the Good Friday service, it spurred me on to live for Jesus even more because of what He had done for me. It was through the service that i felt Jesus's presence in my heart and surroundings increase and suddenly made more realistic. My love for Jesus has also increased so much that every single day i just want to make sure that He's there beside me. And i really thank God for the state that i'm in now, and for His gift of the Holy spirit in which He reminds me to speak to God everywhere i go.
God is just so wonderful. And i'm so glad that each day, i get to talk to Him, just like how i would talk to a best friend.
Lord, i really really thank you so much for the love you've shown me. Each and everyday has become more and more exciting. Without you, i am nothing. And Lord, i just pray that you'll be so close to me as well, that one day i'll be able to hear you say that i am your best friend. Lord i just LOVE you SOOOO much, and for all the things that you have done for me. Thank you so much dear Lord.
In Jesus' name i pray,
Amen.
Ps. Pardon the grammatical errors (if any) above. Wrote this quickly as there were too many things to write and i was too excited. :D
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