Argh.
I really don't know what s going on anymore. Everything is probably in a nice blurry painting with colours all over the place that i myself can't see what is drawn exactly. Okay if that explanation wasn't explicit enough, then:
I AM IN A TOTAL MESS.
(no not homework, studies, church, family, friends, blah blah)
AM I SERIOUSLY TOO FICKLE?
(but it just comes and goes right?)
HOW CAN THERE BE TWO EYEBALLS IN ONE SOCKET?
(or is it just an eyeball with vision of as if there were two)
Okay, fine. My inner guts are dying, i get butterflies in my stomach too often. Especially in school.
BUT HOW COULD I HAVE CONTRADICTED MY THOUGHTS???
(the power of words from others)
(I think i'm too easily influenced)
NO I M NOT.
(i'm talking to myself)
and that happens only when i m in a position of looking at two yummy apples from two different trees, thinking of whether i should grab the green one or the red one, where both seemed rather tasty and 'wormless'.
The red one is too normal, too what you call that, seemingly predictable. As though i would have already known how it tasted.
The green one, seems different, and even amusing. Green apples are known for being sour, and at times sweet.
What now?
when both are equally hard to reach for. Climbing the tree is painful, probably hurting myself with splinters. Shaking the tree would either get me injured with bruises and cuts, or would probably cause the apples to be somewhat destroyed when it smashes on the ground. Force.
I can't possibly gape at the tree, the seemingly harmless tree, and wait for the apples to be ripe and fall off someday. I can't. I'm too hungry. I need to be refreshed.
Wait, now I even thirst for both! i yell. I tell myself, i just need the apples, i'm starving.
And then manna, as though like magic, appears before me.
